If you're someone who is easily offended, please don't read this.....
Last night I had biology class and sociology class as usual. During my sociology class I was told by the professor (African-American man) that I have every opportunity in the world and special privileges because I'm white. I told him that I didn't believe his statement was completely true. I then explained how I had applied to several teaching positions here in St. Louis this year, but didn't get hired because I'm white. Yes, I applied to schools that were composed of 99% African-American students. I was optimistic and eager to teach at those schools, but believe I was not given the opportunity to because I'm white. This is the reason I am even in his class. I did not land a teaching job this year.
Either my prayers of finding a teaching job were not answered or God just has a different plan for my life. This is what ultimately confirmed my thoughts of going back to school.
All of this really got me thinking.....
I've really formed a completely different identity here in St. Louis. David is the only one here who really knows me, what I've done, my accomplishments, my interests, and my passions. This is not good or bad, it really doesn't matter if all my friends know everything about me.....that's not my point.
I do know that I really haven't offered to share much of my past with my new STL friends. I guess I'm just a go-with-the-flow kind of gal. When I'm with my Med friends, I can listen to them talk for hours about things I don't have the slightest clue about. I actually really enjoy it! The Med Wives I am friends with talk about their children, their churches, and all about being a mom. I'm alright with that too, and I enjoy it! As much as I enjoy all of this, I am still different. I don't know anything about biology (I'm trying though) or medicine, mommyhood or playdates. I do not share the same socioeconomic status, geographic background, family situation, or religion with many of my friends.
I'm going to share more of my identity in this blog
and who I really am.
I think this is actually more for me than for those who read it.
I guess I just don't want to forget the person I am or was.
A Few Facts About Me:
1. I have now had 1 1/2 years off from teaching. Teaching is a tough job, but I loved it! There are days that I'm 100% happy with doing what I'm doing now, and there are days where I want to quit everything, grab a baton or pick up my clarinet, and go MAKE MUSIC!
In case you didn't know.....
Yes, I was a teacher!
I taught MUSIC!
I was a BAND DIRECTOR!
And I was GOOD at it!!!
I made this Sponge Bob to go along with the Sponge Bob theme song we played at a concert.
The concert theme was "At the Movies"
We even gave away door prizes! This encouraged people to come to our concerts.
The students loved Sponge Bob, so he was given a permanent home in our band room.
2. CLASSICAL MUSIC IS MY FAVORITE!
3. I want Beethoven's Symphony No. 7, Mvmt. II played at my funeral.
4. The only books I really enjoy reading are about music history, composers, printing and publishing, etc.
I can't deny it or run from it any longer......
I am PASSIONATE and head-over-heels in LOVE with MUSIC!
What are you passionate about?